How a dark day brought a reminder that the dread of knowing something is missing is the answer I was looking for.

8:41 am.

Monday morning, and I am starting the week with a clear void and longing to discover the next step. This feeling permeates my entire being, and I carry it to work despite being thankful for all I already have.

The dread of something missing pulls me to have a quick view of my email.

“How To Make Six Figures from Writing in 12 Months” — I read.

My brain feels enticed, and I start browsing the post while a stunning story unfolds before my eyes. I would never have imagined that what caught my rationality’s attention would end up opening my heart.

Line after line, I am reminded about the bridges I have been building during the past four years, which have focused on self-reliance, rediscovery, and vulnerability. Embracing myself as a writer has required changes of thought, behaviour, and belief. I am still working on it!

Between paragraphs, I reflect that I am eager to connect with that new me, but I am scared of failing. So, I keep going back to my old routine and forget that transforming myself is the goal.

I understand that change is a habit and every single thing I want to accomplish will be the result of a shift, a switch, a thing I am willing to do differently to get a result distant from the ones I have already collected. However, I constantly feel something is pulling me in all directions, which gets in the way of me navigating towards anything.

A few lines below, I found support that goes far and beyond what a simple writing piece can provide: “Be OK on the days when you don’t feel OK… Understand that you did so by writing on the good days and the bad days.”

You never know when a stranger will remind you that longing for your best version is the greatest tool for bringing you back to you and that you are already on the right path.

Yes, some days we don’t feel full of energy and inspired. Some mornings, we question our own existence and see ourselves lost and drained. Sometimes everything is perfect, but we can’t see how we fit in that picture.

It doesn’t matter how you feel, what you feel is OK!

Understand that sadness, despair, longing, fear, or insecurity is not the question; it’s the answer! Remember that the only reason you feel like that is that your Source being has a different opinion of the situation and wants you to discover new horizons.

What you are experiencing is a calling to be the real you.

Life sometimes seems to suck. But repeat after me:

The show must go on, and I AM a freaking awesome Star!